To My Renegamer Family..

Wish You All Well..

Hello My Wonderful ReneGamer Family, I am Deeply Sadden to Have to Do This to All The Wonderful and Great People I met on Twitch.TV. But Some People Do Not Want Me Around Anymore, I am very Sorry to do this but Until this person can admit to there actions and take responsibility for them I will NOT return. I was Recently Banned for Saying" I CAN NOT GET ON sever sorry caps." ( Meaning the Minecraft Subcriber Server)There was for NO Justifyable reason of course for it, but they did it.After All My Support and Appreciation and More I guess was not enough. I don't know I am not sure why this person couldn't confront me directly through e-mail or twitter or whatever, But I guess. Anyway, I love You ALL and Hope to Stay in Contact with everyone on Twitter or facebook or what have you. <3 Again, I am so sorry to do this but like I said Until this person asks me back directly and Apologize for the unjustifiable banned I will NOT Return. :( <3 <3 All. 

Lessons Learned 2014

Lessons Learned 2014

Wow! It hasn't even been a month in, and I have Already Learned so much for 2014. I learned that there were people who I thought were true friends all this time turned out they were not. Which to is very sad, because I felt like a fool and stupid for actually believing in them and being there for them when they needed an ear or just someone to listen to them. I Felt really let down and disappointed in myself for Allowing myself to be used again. :( I know you can't control peoples actions and whatever, but I thought I knew better especially after having so many FAKE friends most of my life. All I can say is IT IS WHAT IT IS! why you ask because you can't change whats been done already all you can do is move forward and learn from it yes, its hard, and it does not happen over night it takes time, but You will get there. :) I remember when I first heard that saying I was thinking the person who said was rude and that she could EAT IT! but After taking the time to think about she was right. Now, I use it when needed in my life. :) The Lessons I have Learned are to be more Positive and Patience, which is funny cause I used to be the Most Patience Person in my family and now not so much lol I am to a point Patient. I guess with All I have gone through in life and still continue to learn everyday because you Never stop Learning I lost some patience, but I am working on it for sure :) Now, I have to say I did still continue to have some help with all of this I Thank You All from the bottom of my heart for putting up with me and problems and life journeys I truly Appreciate it so much. :) <3 <3 

Good To Bad

Good To Bad 

This Past week I had a Doctor Appointment as usual every month, I got to get my blood checked to make sure my Diabetes is in control. I got Weighed as usual and to my Surprise I Lost 100 pounds!! Now, I knew I lost weight but wasn't sure how much don't have a scale lol anyway, I was so very happy and still am but when I called my Mother to tell her, she tells me "It doesn't look like it, actually you look like you gained." I was so hurt and upset. You think I would be used to this, because she has ALWAYS been very critical of me my whole life no matter what it was, and she still is to this day. Anyway, I worked so hard to lose weight and for her to say that just hurt so much. Anyway, my Motivations to lose weight were and are All my friends and yes, Dan Gheesling and his book "Punch It In!"Very Helpful and Motivating! and Life Changing! :) I am just Grateful to have know and have meet such wonderful people and have them in my life. <3 :)

Oh, Just Yesterday a My Dear Friends Mom who lives in California with My Dear Friend Melissa Whisman, her Daughter :) Walked For the First time!! :) After 20 years of being in a Wheel Chair due to health Problems. She posted it in Facebook my friends Mom. I was and Am So Happy for her! God Bless her, and I wish her All the best! :) for 2014! I WISH YOU ALL THE VERY BEST FOR 2014 AND GOOD HEALTH AND SUCCESS!! :) <3 <3

 

The End Of 2013 !

Happy New Year! 

Finally, The Year is coming to an End. 2013, has been a UP and DOWN kinda year for me. It did not start off well at all, to say the least. But through out the year, I have met some really Amazing, and Honorable, and very Inspirational True Friends. That I am TRULY Honored and Blessed to know and Hope to One Day met in person Especially Mr. Dan Gheesling, This may sound silly to some people, but I don't care. He has Changed my Life so much without knowing it, to become a better person and sister and daughter. I will FOREVER be Grateful to him for that. God knows we need more Inspirational and Down to Earth People like him. That Enjoy helping others around him and Encouraging them to Better themselves. He is Actually the second person in my life that has done that for me, Encouraged and Motivated me and Had my back if needed to do Better for me. I will NEVER forget it. :) God Bless him and ALL the True friends in my life for Always standing by me and putting up with me and my rants and complaining about my younger brother and family issues. LOL! I know it was not easy to do, and I am sure annoying as all hell. But I am so Thankful and Grateful for Everything You ALL have done for me. :) I truly Hope and Pray You ALL have the BEST and most Wonderful New Year and Days to come. I truly mean that from the bottom of my heart. :) Love You ALL and wish You ALL nothing but the Best! :)

 

My Thoughts After Reading this Book

Clean Your Own Mirror by Dan Gheesling 

My Thoughts are I had a HUGE Light Bulb Moment, I am sure your thinking from a Book? Yes, I have had a few moments like this in my life. One being from a Camp in Prescott AZ that I attended and Another from a Former Teacher I had and last from the passing of my first Nephew who was born premature and only lived ten days.During my Sophmore and Senior year of High School, I attended a School Called Metro Tech Vocational Institute of Phoenix, which is now a Four High School. They during the month of October took a select few of students to attend a Camp in Prescott AZ for a week, most of thought alright! a week off. But little did we know that a week would change ALL of our lives forever and create a bound within all of us that can Never be taken away. We went there to learn about Multicultural Diversity, we not only learned more about it, we learned more about ourselves and each other. It was the Best most life changing experience ever! :) The other was a former Teacher name Mrs. Dr. Susan Carlile she was Truly an Amazing person. Free Spirited and enjoyed life to the fullest and lives life one day at a time. :) She is married now and has a baby and lives in Germany. She was there for me through some really hard times in my life and a true life saver. She thought me so much about speaking up and speaking infront people and taking charge of my life. To not let anyone or anything bring me down or take me down. The last being my Nephew he thought me about Never giving up granted he only lived ten days but he fought so hard and changed my life as well as my families. he was a True Miracle for sure. <3 :)  Finally, This Book it has brought everything prospective for me and has giving me the strength and power from within to Take charge of my life again and live for me and to Always stay strong and continue to have a big caring heart and continue to help those around me. :) I know change doesn't happen over night but this is for sure a start. :) This Book is a MUST have and Inspiration. :)  

To order your copy go to  www.dangheesling.com/mirror 

That Unexpected Visit..

That Unexpected Visit..

I had a GREAT unexpected visit yesterday, for my Dear Friend Maryann, she is 67 years old. I meet her in Diabetes Class, That I had to take five years ago. She is truly a very sweet and kind hearted lady and would give you the shirt off her back and more. (like me.) she came over yesterday morning to bring me Groceries. I had not talked to her in a while actually months, and she surprised me. Actually we needed some stuff, so it was a Blessing for sure. :) I was so happy and very grateful for sure and can't Thank her enough for that. With everything that has been going on lately it made my day/week. It is a GREAT HONOR and BLESSING to know her and have her apart of my life. :) 

The Holidays

The Holidays

As the Thanksgiving and Christmas approach, I Think Thank God, a New Year is around the corner because this one has to say the least been really rough. Yeah there were some good things but really more bad. I mean it for sure did not start off well at all. Anyway, as I mentioned in a passed Blog that I suffer from Severe Depression, an Every year Christmas would come around I couldn't wait for it to be over. Because of what happened to me also explained in a past Blog. This year, is hard also but not as bad as years before. It is still hard for me, to just enjoy Christmas anymore. But I have really come a LONG way, and I am a LOT better than before. Still have those rough days, even everyday is a struggle because with all That I have been dealing with. 

I also want to say THANK YOU AGAIN to ALL My Dear Friends and Family who Have Helped me with so much and been here for me through ALL of this. <3 Love You ALL!! You ALL are like My Second Family and Mean Everything to me, and I am so HONORED and BLESSED to have you apart of my life :) with this all being said I Wish You All a Very Happy Thanksgiving and Merry Christmas! :)