That Unexpected Visit..

That Unexpected Visit..

I had a GREAT unexpected visit yesterday, for my Dear Friend Maryann, she is 67 years old. I meet her in Diabetes Class, That I had to take five years ago. She is truly a very sweet and kind hearted lady and would give you the shirt off her back and more. (like me.) she came over yesterday morning to bring me Groceries. I had not talked to her in a while actually months, and she surprised me. Actually we needed some stuff, so it was a Blessing for sure. :) I was so happy and very grateful for sure and can't Thank her enough for that. With everything that has been going on lately it made my day/week. It is a GREAT HONOR and BLESSING to know her and have her apart of my life. :) 

The Holidays

The Holidays

As the Thanksgiving and Christmas approach, I Think Thank God, a New Year is around the corner because this one has to say the least been really rough. Yeah there were some good things but really more bad. I mean it for sure did not start off well at all. Anyway, as I mentioned in a passed Blog that I suffer from Severe Depression, an Every year Christmas would come around I couldn't wait for it to be over. Because of what happened to me also explained in a past Blog. This year, is hard also but not as bad as years before. It is still hard for me, to just enjoy Christmas anymore. But I have really come a LONG way, and I am a LOT better than before. Still have those rough days, even everyday is a struggle because with all That I have been dealing with. 

I also want to say THANK YOU AGAIN to ALL My Dear Friends and Family who Have Helped me with so much and been here for me through ALL of this. <3 Love You ALL!! You ALL are like My Second Family and Mean Everything to me, and I am so HONORED and BLESSED to have you apart of my life :) with this all being said I Wish You All a Very Happy Thanksgiving and Merry Christmas! :)

 

Just Have to Say..

Just Have To Say..

I am writing this to say Thinks are SLOWLY turning around for me and my family. My Younger Brother is Finally going back to my mom's house to stop living on the streets and with friends. Now, he just needs to start cleaning up meaning get off the drugs again and stay away from those that do. He has a new girlfriend now, she is nice, but he really needs to get himself straight first, I don't know that's just my opinion I guess whatever makes him happy and works for him I guess. Now, he just needs to find a job and go from there, I know it won't happen overnight but a start is good. :) 

His Ex and My EX Sister in law is FINALLY, getting therapy for herself and working on herself which is good, and I am happy for her. It's a start hope and wish her well. Now me, I am working on myself like learning to speak my mind more not getting rude just saying what I am feeling and how in a respectful way and being more detail in speaking. An not think that some people can understand me. Also, I am putting my foot down more with brothers by telling them No and mean it. Better late than never I guess, actually should have done this soon but you live and learn.Thank you! :)

 

What Do You Do?

What Do You Do?

What Do You Do, when someone you have such a HIGH Respect For and Truly believed in, and Stuck Up for when Others knocked them down and said things that are not repeatable, and believed was truly caring and had a big heart, Hurts you Emtionally? 

That's what I am asking myself now, I am not looking for pity or sorrow, just help in understanding how they can be this way, with you when they never met you and don't really know you. I know your probably thinking this sounds creepy or something, but that's not at all what this is, a LOT of people feel this way about this person and many people out there feel this way about some celebrities meaning Having such a High respect for and believing in and things like that. 

Long Story Short, a few nights ago, this person said somethings that were just uncalled for, and all I wanted was an apology, and they were too good or stubborn not sure which to say I am Sorry.which is why

I post this pic here( The one above) cause it says how I have been feeling since this happened shocked, hurt very hurt, and upset. I am not sure if this person really cares how I feel I don't know, but now they know how I feel. 

If you have any suggestions please feel free comment below. :) I would love to here what you would do in this situation. :) 

My Young Brother's Life

My Young Brother's Life

Fermin and Xavier! :)

Fermin Jerry Melendez was born on Nov.18th, First let me just say I am writing this, to explain what he has gone through growing up and up until now. He is not looking for Pity or Anything just understanding and an ear to listen. yeah he didn't grow up the same way we did meaning as me and Sergio and Gabriel because it was different for us especially the time periods. But anyway, Fermin was a happy baby and always had a good spirit about him. He has a good heart and unfortunately a bit of a taker and other things. But that is neither here nor there. He has not had the greatest friends like most of us, and he got into drugs and drinking fairly young, yeah I know not good. But my brother's weren't much of brother's to him, and I tried to be there for him as much as I could at times but I to had my own problems I was going through at the time and still am. But anyway, at 3 years old his father who he never meet was killed by Mexican Mafia yeah he was a member unfortunately and then his dad's side of the family disowned him. which was very heart breaking, my mom did the best she could. Fermin has seen shit no one should ever see or go through An for sure Never wants his kids going through. He would have three boys but his first son Junior aka Fermin Jerry Melendez Jr. only lived 10 days he was born March 6, 2007. He was born premature. That was the hardest thing ever to go through for my family and I. Even now its still hard at times. But he is God's Hands now and with the Angels. Would thing this would have drove them apart him and my ex sister in law but no, he had made them stronger for a while but then a few years down the road things got bad. He got into Drugs and Alcohol really bad and was not treating her right either. But they both stayed together and had two more kids. Xavier and Marcus, Xavier he has Autism he is so very smart and full of life and just loves his daddy and loves School and Marcus he loves his daddy too and is also very smart. Basically, the whole point of this was to explain some of what he has gone throw and a little about why he is the way he is at times not making excuses for his actions at all, but just wanted you to get a better understanding of him. Recently found out this past week that he was hit by car set up by his baby mama her boyfriend at the time did it. He is doing better Phyiscally anyway, Thank you all for your Prayers and well wishes out there. :) <3 <3

Marcus! :)

Fermin My younger Brother

For You My Online friends and Family. :)

For You My Online Friends and Family :)

I just want to take this time to say THANK YOU ALL!! So much for ALL your Advice and Prayers to me and my family. You Truly have no Idea how much that means to me, God Bless You all, and I wish you all the best for the New Year to come. :) This Song is For You :

Because You All are True Angels to me, you all have helped me over come so much in my life this past year alone, and I will forever be Grateful and Appreciate ALL of You. :) <3 <3 

A Stressful Year!

A Stressful Year 2013..

I have had such a crazy year, I mean were to being. December 2011 was good and bad, I Finally moved out on my own which was GREAT! and Then right before Christmas was bad, My brother Sergio who lives with me got a call from his ex's mother saying she kicked out his daughters and ex out of her house an had no idea were they were. Then My Younger Brother DRAMA, DRAMA!! just one thing after another.. from Fighting with his Baby Mama to jail to just recent getting hit by her boyfriend's car that she set up. He is by the way okay, just in a LOT of pain Physically and Emotionally. But he is hanging in there. 

I myself going through my own problems worrying about food and stuff. But I am doing better now, after getting help from my mother. Thank God, I appreciate All the help I have gotten from her. I know she has her own, struggles and all.

 So I am so ready for a New Year and a Better one at that. :) The Good Parts to this year, yes there are Up's I have meet the Best People ever, and I have a New Pic of my Nieces and Nephews.. 

Avie(Left) and Ella(Right).

Marcus is Superman and Xavier is Batman :) Halloween Pic!

That Song is for My Nieces and Nephews <3 <3 them! 

This one is for my mom :

God Bless Her! :)
Thank You All for Checking out my posts Appreciate it. :) <3