To My Renegamer Family..

Wish You All Well..

Hello My Wonderful ReneGamer Family, I am Deeply Sadden to Have to Do This to All The Wonderful and Great People I met on Twitch.TV. But Some People Do Not Want Me Around Anymore, I am very Sorry to do this but Until this person can admit to there actions and take responsibility for them I will NOT return. I was Recently Banned for Saying" I CAN NOT GET ON sever sorry caps." ( Meaning the Minecraft Subcriber Server)There was for NO Justifyable reason of course for it, but they did it.After All My Support and Appreciation and More I guess was not enough. I don't know I am not sure why this person couldn't confront me directly through e-mail or twitter or whatever, But I guess. Anyway, I love You ALL and Hope to Stay in Contact with everyone on Twitter or facebook or what have you. <3 Again, I am so sorry to do this but like I said Until this person asks me back directly and Apologize for the unjustifiable banned I will NOT Return. :( <3 <3 All. 

Lessons Learned 2014

Lessons Learned 2014

Wow! It hasn't even been a month in, and I have Already Learned so much for 2014. I learned that there were people who I thought were true friends all this time turned out they were not. Which to is very sad, because I felt like a fool and stupid for actually believing in them and being there for them when they needed an ear or just someone to listen to them. I Felt really let down and disappointed in myself for Allowing myself to be used again. :( I know you can't control peoples actions and whatever, but I thought I knew better especially after having so many FAKE friends most of my life. All I can say is IT IS WHAT IT IS! why you ask because you can't change whats been done already all you can do is move forward and learn from it yes, its hard, and it does not happen over night it takes time, but You will get there. :) I remember when I first heard that saying I was thinking the person who said was rude and that she could EAT IT! but After taking the time to think about she was right. Now, I use it when needed in my life. :) The Lessons I have Learned are to be more Positive and Patience, which is funny cause I used to be the Most Patience Person in my family and now not so much lol I am to a point Patient. I guess with All I have gone through in life and still continue to learn everyday because you Never stop Learning I lost some patience, but I am working on it for sure :) Now, I have to say I did still continue to have some help with all of this I Thank You All from the bottom of my heart for putting up with me and problems and life journeys I truly Appreciate it so much. :) <3 <3 

Good To Bad

Good To Bad 

This Past week I had a Doctor Appointment as usual every month, I got to get my blood checked to make sure my Diabetes is in control. I got Weighed as usual and to my Surprise I Lost 100 pounds!! Now, I knew I lost weight but wasn't sure how much don't have a scale lol anyway, I was so very happy and still am but when I called my Mother to tell her, she tells me "It doesn't look like it, actually you look like you gained." I was so hurt and upset. You think I would be used to this, because she has ALWAYS been very critical of me my whole life no matter what it was, and she still is to this day. Anyway, I worked so hard to lose weight and for her to say that just hurt so much. Anyway, my Motivations to lose weight were and are All my friends and yes, Dan Gheesling and his book "Punch It In!"Very Helpful and Motivating! and Life Changing! :) I am just Grateful to have know and have meet such wonderful people and have them in my life. <3 :)

Oh, Just Yesterday a My Dear Friends Mom who lives in California with My Dear Friend Melissa Whisman, her Daughter :) Walked For the First time!! :) After 20 years of being in a Wheel Chair due to health Problems. She posted it in Facebook my friends Mom. I was and Am So Happy for her! God Bless her, and I wish her All the best! :) for 2014! I WISH YOU ALL THE VERY BEST FOR 2014 AND GOOD HEALTH AND SUCCESS!! :) <3 <3