My Birthday! :)

Hey! Well my birthday is coming up, june 30th. I want to be excited about it but with what my family and I are going through its very hard. But I will try to stay positive for you All. :) ♡ I thank you all again for all your support. ♡ my Aunt is not doing so well again not good I know. I pray for her and wish her well.. ♡ I tell you I think my family and I are cursed. I mean just so much bad stuff and all. I don't know... you all take care and love to you all. :) ♡

A Reason to Stay Strong. :)

I have been through so much these past months when I didn't have Home Internet.  (I have it now) :) anyways, I go back to one of the best gaming communities on @twitch I have Never felt so much love by them like I did when I returned.  ♡♡ I appreciate that so much! :) unfortunately someone wasn't so glad. :( but I will Not let them get the Best of me nor will I stoop to there level of ignorance.  I will hold my head up high and move forward because they are Not worth my energy or time. My Aunt was in the hospital for Ammonia still is but is doing better thank God! She is such a strong fighter for sure. :) ♡♡ take care and god bless All! ♡

Just Because.. :)

I just want to say from the bottom of my heart and my families Thank You to Everyone for All your Prayers and support and thoughts through our tough time, God Bless You All ♥♥ you helped us to stay Strong and become Closer there are not enough words to thank you properly. :) ♥just wanted you All to know we are doing better and learning so much. :) well you All take care and miss you All my internet family ♥♥ :)

Appreciation

Appreciate Your Family and Friends

I have learned a very valuable lesson in the last few weeks, about Forgiveness and Appreciation,  never take your friends, family, or anyone at that for granted because you just never know anymore. There is a reason I am saying and writing this, but out of respect for my family I will not say what in my blog. If you really care and want to know you can e-mail me at athena_santana@yahoo.com or DM me on Twitter if your following me or facebook message me. Your choice,  anyway, I for one will Always cherish everyday and memory I have with my family and friends. ♥♥ ★ because they mean that much more to me. I also want to say I miss and love ALL my Renegamer Family from Twitch. I hope all is well with you and your families.  :) ♥♥ take care and see ya later. Sorry its short.. 

A New Beginning :)

A NEW BEGINNING..

I Have learned so much this week without Any Internet and Home Phone and All. I have Done a LOT of Thinking scary I know LOL! seriously though, I have thought a LOT about life and family and friends and Especially Forgiveness. yeah, I have Always thought of myself as a pretty forgving person and understanding as well. But come to find out after the brake in from my younger brother in my home I found myself taking things out on those that really care about me and being angry at such stupid stuff. I also found myself not being so forgving. yeah not good, with this time I have rethought a LOT of things and with the help of my therapy I have Learned to Forgive again and move forward in life. :) So yeah I am pretty proud of myself :) I am sure for some people out there don't believe but you know what I am not out prove or get approval from anyone so it is what it is! :) Just wanted to share this. God Bless and Take Care :) <3 (Love) :)

To My ReneGamer Family A letter of Gratitude! :)

This is a Letter Of Gratitude :)

I Want to Take this time to Thank You All!! for All of  your friendships and Advice and for just being there for me when I needed an Ear to listen or cry in of over the phone and for just being you. :) Truly Genuwine and Inspirational and True friends to me. I have learned so much and changed so much within a year, I will ALWAYS Cherish that keep those memories of hanging out in chat until late hours and just talking and talking and helping each other  through some really tough times to worrying about each other and wanting to help. I am Personally  Honored and Blessed to know you All and look forward to finally meeting you All at some point. :) <3 <3 I wish Each and Everyone of you All the best and All the Great Success life has to offer you All. :) I Love You All ReneGamers!! :) God Bless! ( wanted to make a video but I don't really know how so I wrote this letter :) )

Very Bad Weekend..

A Very Bad Weekend.. :(

This Past weekend on Friday March 14th, My little brother Fermin Melendez, Broke into my Home. He Stole ALL My Diabetes Medications and Some Money, and some other things. Yes, the Material stuff can and will be replaced. Thank God! But the Trust and Respect what little I had for him Cannot be replaced. I am so hurt and have feelings of Anxiety and Confusion and Depressed right now. I am trying very hard to stay Positive with some help from Family and Dear Friends Colleen Kelly and Mindy from The Renegamer Twitch Community on Dan Gheeslings Twitch Channel. Truly The Best People Ever and Can't wait to meet in person some of them. <3 Anyway, Fermin is so deep into Drugs and homeless, and all its sad really cause his boys need him, and I feel bad for them my Nephews. He says he cares and misses them but Actions Speak Louder than Words. So yeah that was my weekend, and cried All weekend cause I was and still hurt very much. I Love you All and Take Care hope yours was better than mine..