FREEDOM

I WISH I KNEW WHAT THAT WAS LIKE TO HAVE FREEDOM & KNOW WHAT IT'S LIKE TO BE FREE. 

MY WHOLE LIFE HAS BEEN NOTHING BUT FIGHTING & PUSHING THROUGH &SURVIVING & STRUGGLING & HEARTACHE PAIN & SUFFERING. 

WHEN IS ENOUGH ENOUGH?? WHEN WILL I BE FREE? WHEN WILL I HAVE FREEDOM?? WHEN I PASS AWAY & DIE?? IS THAT WHEN?? 

I'M JUST TO OLD FOR THIS SHIT I'M 44 YEARS OLD & I'M HOMELESS & I CAN'T WORK DUE TO HEALTH & MENTAL HEALTH ISSUES. I TRIED TO APPLY FOR DISABILITY BUT ALL I GET IS DENIED, DENIED, DENIED. 

I JUST WANT THE PAIN & SUFFERING & HEARTACHE & STRUGGLE TO STOP. I WANT TO END MY LIFE SO BAD VERY BAD. BECAUSE I'M DONE GOING THROUGH IT. 

I HAVEN'T DONE IT YET BECAUSE HONESTLY I REALLY DON'T KNOW WHY. 

I WAS GOING TO SAY BECAUSE OF A PROMISE I MADE. 

I HAVE HAD COUNTLESS THERAPIST & ONLY ONE THAT I THOUGHT I COULD TRUST & WAS KINDA HELPING UNTIL SHE TURNED OUT TO BE A FRAUD AND MORE. 

I HAVE CALLED THE "NUMBERS" & ALL BUT THEY ARE DON'T CARE AT ALL. IT'S TRUE WHAT PEOPLE HAVE SAID. 

I JUST WANT TO KNOW FREEDOM & TO BE FREE.